Footsteps and beyond

Trapped

2006-01-08T05:51:00.000-08:00

Trapped

i don't know what i'm feeling right now... my heart feels heavy... it's like an anvil is chained to it... and by gravity... it's pulling me down... im sinking... because of recent events... God... help me understand... im confused... the whole weekend... whatever im feeling is preventing me to study... my enthuiasm to accomplish my school works seems to have faded away... and all i can think about is... yeah that... i hope that somehow my problem can be solved... i don't even know if it can be called one.. 'cause i think i'm the only who thinks that it is a problem.. im going insane... HELP ME PLEASE... never have i felt this way before... i never even imagined that it would come to this.......................................................... i feel like shit... i feel stupid... i feel trapped in my own problems............

iNFLamed

2006-01-06T08:15:00.000-08:00

iNFLamed

You would remember how i talked about being attracted to tennis because of Maria Sharapova well now I have got a new. Not in the sport of tennis but rather in football. Don't think that I'm aroused to NFL because of a strong, buffed and athletic player. . . that is gay. . .and I am not. haha. It is because of the intensity of the game. The long passes, hard tackles, heart stopping interceptions, well executed plays that make it such a magnificent sport to watch. Recently, i watched a college football game. . the Rose Bowl Championship 2005. It was Texas vs USC. Every quarter was jam packed with plays that would make you scream, squeeze the cotton of the pillow and even ignite total silence like what happend in this game. With only 30 seconds to go and USC leading by 5. . it is in the hands of texas' star quarterback, Vince Young, who would deliver the death blow to the whole USC team and fans. Vince Young makes an energetic and confident rush towards the end goal. . and MADE it! there was no better play that he could have done. . he didn't finy any open receivers so he just pushed on the gas and went straight for the touchdown. . that was texas' statement to the whole college football league! after that game. . .i was constantly addicted with watching NFL games. . oh yeah!.

HE IS THE MAN!

Ikot by Stonefree

2006-01-02T19:07:00.000-08:00

Ikot
Stonefree

Di ka na naghihinayang
Sa panahong nasasayang
Di ka na naniniwala
Sa mga himala
Sadya bang napakahirap
Tanawin ang hinahanap
Ooohh..

Tuloy tuloy ang ikot ng mundo
Di 'to hihinto para lang sayoA
t kung ikaw ay maiwan
Ako'y babalik at di ka pababayaan
Oooh...

Di ka na nangangarap
Di na rin naghahanap
Tanggap na ang kahinaan
Nananatili at nagaabang

Tuloy tuloy ang ikot ng mundo
Di 'to hihinto para lang sayo
At kung ikaw ay maiwan
Ako'y babalik at di ka pababayaan
Oooh...

What pre-1985 video game character am I?

2006-01-01T20:41:00.000-08:00

I am a Gauntlet Adventurer.

I strive to improve my living conditions by hoarding gold, food, and sometimes keys and potions. I love adventure, fighting, and particularly winning - especially when there's a prize at stake. I occasionally get lost inside buildings and can't find the exit. I need food badly. What Video Game Character Are You?

The Passing Year

2005-12-31T04:18:00.000-08:00

The Passing Year

Oh yes, so another year passes by. Does everyone one have their new year's resolution written on a piece of paper or just mentally encripted in your thoughts? Good. Looking back at the year 2006 a lot has really happend. I would not try to jot down these events because if I did for sure it would take days...weeks... or even months... So I will just try to take hold of the most important things that happend to me. Who would forget the hassles of entering college? I had great anticipation to what schools would send me a letter saying that I am qualified to study in their fine institution. All those essays, information sheets, 1x1 pictures and not to forget the entrance exams. A lot of people are surprised why I did not push through with ADMU, I had my reasons for that but I am still blessed to be studying in such a well-molded, proffesional and competent college. As each and every freshman who entered their first year in college, I too was nervous. A new environment, new friends and not to be crude to my real alma-mater, a new animal to scream for during assemblies {Uappy the dragon]. I was stuck with Block C. A great mix of personalities and character. Our block had it all. From the kikay people, basketball addicts and smoking fanatics to the quiet ones, people who are excessively happy and to the ones who are just glad to be studying. 2nd semester is just half finished and there's a long way to go. Right now I can't wait for the next schoolyear, more homeworks, projects and tons of those inevitable papers. Let's push aside the academics for a while. One of the most memorable moment in the year 2005 was my HS graduation. I miss my classmates. H2005 forever. All those crazy soirees and parties, I really would not forget. Ever since our graduation we have been trying to find time to get together again and chill out at the best party house c/o Matty "Air Mats" Naguiat. Yeah , it's where all the fun, crazy, riduculous happenings occurred.
To be frank, entering college and exiting HS were 2 of the most important events during 2005. I suppose there were gimmicks, more parties, debuts to attend to, basketball saturdays but it doesn't amount to the intensity of what I mentioned earlier. 2005, I laughed, I cried, I chuckled, I frowned, I became sick, I got depressed and disappointed, I was raised up high and I loved every second, minute, hour, day, week, month of this year. Oh well, I guess this is enough for now but don't worry there are more blogs to be posted this year of 2006. Can't wait to see you all in and outside of school. Peace to everyone and I also hope when I see you people your fingers sum up to 10. Ü

Sharapova

2005-12-22T19:20:00.000-08:00

Sharapova

Yesterday before going to robinson to buy the gifts for my lil sisters i took a bath [of course] then went to the entertainment room to check out whatever is on tv. I was never really a fan of tennis not until the start of the christmas break. I was a bum. Everytime i wake up in the morning the first thing I do is go the entertainment room to, well, entertain myself with some tv shows. After watching the usual NBA games on Solar Sports I surf the cable I noticed the tennis game in ESPN. It was the first time that I really looked at the tennis players. And. . .they were HOT. Well, some of them actually. For everyone's information, I only looked at the women and not the men. Now that would be really gay. Not to be really obvious I entitled this blog "sharapova". Why? Of course, who else was I looking at but the Wimbledon Champion from Russia, Maria Sharapova. Take note, we are of the same age. Ooooh. As if anything will happen, right? HaHa. I couldn't leave the couch upon watching her play. Now we were really delayed. I think my lil sis was angry because she wanted to go galleria already to get her gift. But sad to say, Sharapova kept her waiting. Every game has to end and every show too has an end. After her match I finally got the strength to stand up and leave the house. Guess what I did when I went back at home? [Here's a clue]

Sound Sensation

2005-12-20T01:53:00.000-08:00

Sound Sensation

Wear your headphones
Crank up the volume
Ready your mind and soul
Travel in a world of sensation

Feel the beat
Close your eyes
Let the music pass through your ears
Be ignorant of the world outside

Freedom is in your hands.
Move by your own will
A state of bliss
Swim around in your imaginative world

Listen to the music and bring your soul on a high...
Rather than taking the blue pill
And letting it close your eyes...forever.

Under Crisis by Urbandub

2005-12-18T02:49:00.000-08:00

Under Crisis
by Urbandub

I blame it on the world
So sad and so absurd
It's my pride that fuels my lies
I have no where else to turn
Drop ashes from the burns
Compromised my life

Breaking down the walls
That's dividing and keeping me from you
Racing out. . .
Screaming out your frustrations
[Reaching out for a savior]
you go. . .

I need a savior now
Is heaven around?
I'm calling out

I'm craving now
For a new dawn to descend on my soul
I'm racing now
Chasing after my salvation

I'm tired of falling down.

A Pleasurable Memory

2005-12-17T00:26:00.000-08:00

A Pleasurable Memory

oh my lors!!! jaron.. what's happening to you?!

Mismo

2005-12-16T21:34:00.000-08:00

Mismo

From the top i could see your beauty.
The neck which connects to your slender body.
A body so tender, smooth and perfect.
This deep desire whenever i gaze at you.
I have this passionate longing for you.

I hold you tight, never letting go.
Gripping your body, almost slips.
But no, this is the moment.
I have been waiting for so long.
Your aroma fills the air.

Tilting you...
A cold touch enters inside me..

Only one thing i can say...

Ang sarap talaga ng coke

Stress to YES!

2005-12-16T19:33:00.000-08:00

Stress to YES!

The 2 remaining days before the start of my xmas break our professors made sure that we would be sweating during the break. A lot of requirements were due next year; a 10 page paper for Christian Civilization, Advocacy Campaign for Christian Civilization, Film for Philippine Society, Topic Proposal and readings for English, Reading the remaining books of "The Iliad" for Classical Literature. Whoa. They just bombarded me with every project and paper that they could think of. I sure hope my xmas would still be fun in the sense that I wouldn't have to worry about these things. Well, one thing that I am sure of is that it will all lead to cramming. HAHA. I still have the High School attitude in me. A procrastinator. But despite the stressful obligations that I am blessed with there is one thing [literally] that turned the stress to a an ecstatic YES!

It was a tuesday, this week. I was spending my free time at the ledge [a place where the UA&P students usually hang-out after class]and was talking with my blockmates. After being amazed by the new iPod video that my blockmate justin bought the week before, I started telling Brian [Justin's car pool-mate] about it. Unexpectedly he told me that he was selling his 40GB iPod Photo for only 12 thou. Of course upon hearing a price like that my conscience told me to buy it. That seems too fast, maybe just to reserve the iPod for me. HaHa. Being a good friend and all of that shit. I offered him 14 thousand for it. You might think that the offer i made was very stupid but think about it he's selling it for so-so-low price. After that day all i could think about is getting my hands on that iPod photo. Thursday night i asked my dad if i could buy it and there were sweet words that came out of his mouth. Well.. he just said "ok" but the hell it was sweet enough for me. HaHa. I couldn't wait for friday to come when I will start turning the wheel and clicking on it to play the song. Oh YES!. I slept early that night. Woke up early just to go to school and get the iPod. My class was at 10.30am but i went to school at about 8.30am because Brian's class was at 9am. Im sure that you know how i feel right now after taking possesion of this gadget. So here it ends. . .Ü

*This isn't mine but i just wanted to post a picture. HaHa.

5 minute break

2005-12-14T01:39:00.000-08:00

5 minute break

I hate studying for physics. . . I can't even answer the problem set HANSLEY gave. . i hope don't get in a coma after the long exam tomorrow. . .

The first demented entry

2005-12-13T19:37:00.000-08:00

The First Demented Entry

This is my first and official entry for my new blogsite. My past blog was f*cked up. A lot of people whom i do not know and even give a damn with posted shit on my tagboard. So for the people who did that. . . go to hell.